Sorry, I had to pause because she just started gagging. She is also eating everything in sight and that often leads to me having to be extra vigilant. That is the scariest thing as a parent! The gag and you find yourself holding your breath until they breathe normally again and trying not to panick but think clearly what to do as they gag and gag on something they sneaked into their mouth.
Anyway, as I was saying...I love being a mom most of the time. The middle of the night I find rough. The mornings can be rough if the night before was rough or she got up too early. So the special times...or the times I love being a mom most come just after her nap....when I have had some me time and have begun to miss her. I hear her start to make noises from her packnplay. I love seeing her eyes light up and her start to bounce as she sees me come into the room to rescue her from her cage. Ha ha. I love watching her play with her toys when she thinks I am not watching. Or watch her sip from a sippy cup by herself like a big girl, - because in my heart I know the stage where she is dependent on me to help her is passing all to quickly. I am in no big hurry for another child because I am still enamored by this one. I have enjoyed every new skill and watching her take in new sights and new activities. So, as far as more children, I hope to wait until she is at least 1 or 2 before a sibling comes along. I want her to have plenty of time with mom and dad feeling secure and loved before a little brother or sister comes to steal a bit of her thunder. She has thrived under all this personal attention she gets from me staying at home and I am so thankful my husband sees and supports my being a fulltime mom. I am lookng forward to home schooling, crafts and family field trips to the zoo or museum. Life has become so rich watching her grow...granted there are also those moments I want to be single and not have to deal with poopy diapers or nighttime feedings...but I have to say the good definitely outweighs the bad. I keep a journal of Dassa's doing so I rarely write for myself that often but I wanted to post these feelings down before I forgot them. Being a Mom - there is nothing like it! Pros and Cons - but what an amazing Gift!