So, my daughter Dassa-Beanie is 8 months now and already starting to walk! I love being a mom most of the time.
Sorry, I had to pause because she just started gagging. She is also eating everything in sight and that means I have to be extra vigilant. That sound is the scariest thing as a parent! The gag! You find yourself holding your breath until they breathe normally again. Trying not to panic, but stop and act swiftly as they gag and gag on something they stuck into their mouth when you weren't watching. Or in this ninja's case, even when I was looking!
Anyway, as I was saying...
I love being a mom most of the time. The middle of the night I find rough. The mornings can be difficult too if the night before was rough. So the special times... or the times I love being a mom most come just after nap. After I managed to have some me time and had a little time to miss her. I find myself listening for noises from her pack-n-play.
I love seeing her eyes light up and start to bounce as she sees me come into the room to rescue her from her cage(Ha ha). I love watching her play with her toys when she thinks I am not watching, or watch her drink from a sippy-cup by herself like a big girl.
In my heart I know the stage where she is dependent on me to help is passing all too quickly. I am in no big hurry for another child because I am still enamored by this one. I enjoy every new skill, watching her take in new sights and discover new activities. I hope to wait until Dassa-Beanie is at least a few years old before a sibling comes along. I want her to have plenty of time with mom and dad, so she feels secure and loved before a little brother or sister comes to steal a bit of her thunder.
Dassa-Beanie has thrived under all the personal attention she gets from me staying at home. I am so thankful my husband sees the benefits and supports my being a full-time mom. I am looking forward to homeschooling, crafts and family field trips to the zoo or museum. Life has become so rich watching her grow. Granted, there are also those hard moments I wish again to be free, not have to deal with poopy diapers, or nighttime feedings, but I have to say the good definitely outweighs the bad.
I keep an offline journal of Dassa-Beanie's activities, so I don't write for myself that often right now. I wanted to post these feelings down before I forgot them in case they might help another mom out there know she is not alone in the struggles and joy of motherhood.
Being a Mom - there is nothing like it!
Pros and Cons - but what an amazing Gift!
My Current Mantra
Walk humbly with God and do the work at your hands....