Am pleased that josh and my marriage evaluation was flagged because we were so in-tune with each other. The guy said he has never seen such scores in 25 years of marriage counseling and wondered if we had taken the test together (we didn't!). I know it is all God, but hearing that gave me such peace that if we did go into ministry full time that we would have a good chance of keeping a healthy marriage and family since we have such a good base.
Hearing from other pastor's wives was what I needed to hear. There were all extremes of personality and vision of their personal calling. One awesome lady said I am called to remain healthy so I can bandage my husband's wounds when he comes home and to be the best mama ever. !! I have such a heart for my children that to hear that i don't have to be running women's ministry/children's ministry (if i don't want to) and I could still be a great pastor's wife was so freeing! When the kids are older I have no doubt being involved in women's ministry will be attractive to me, but at this stage my kids are my heart, after being there for josh. :) At the end we had to wait around to drive home with mike and holly so we were surprised when they called us in and gave us our results right then. They affirmed God's calling in our lives which was just so encouraging! Hearing other godly people affirm what God has already told you in your heart is some tasty icing to an already incredible cake! They said that when/if God calls us to build a church they are ready to back us and help us through training. I could see joy shining in my husbands eyes and my own heart was overwhelmed that these people we came to respect so much would want to partner with us was in and of itself an honor. So, now we press in and wait for God to make our path clear. I have so much more peace that if i am called to be a pastor's wife that God will make me a great one. Looking forward to getting their full report with suggestions for strengthening any weak areas. My favorite saying was " start your day receiving fullness" most of the time I start my day with prayer or scripture but instead to start my day accepting from God his love and allow him to fill me so I serve him in overflow instead of my own strength. Duh! I know but i so needed to hear that....that seemingly selfish way to start the day isn't selfish at all but what God craves...duh again - he created us to love us! So, needless to say i feel like a i have new wind in my sails. I love God and I am so thankful that he has more than the norm for me....just saying that makes me cry* he gave me this crazy desire to live a crazy life for him and I will accept no less. Thank you Father for loving me and fulfilling me like no one else can!