With school, tests, midterms, clinicals, studying, work, weddings, travel arrangements for the weddings, possible job changes, and future living arrangement changes, I have gotten a little stressed.
I was driving Josh nuts because I was just so stressed out.
The short weekends together were/are bliss but it seems they replenish me for about a day. Then it is back to the grind.
I was talking with Josh on my work break and he says to me "why don't you go home?".
To me, this seems impossible because I have this unhealthy addiction to work and responsibility. Unless I am deathly ill, I do not feel right leaving! Regardless, I listened. Boy am I surprised (not!) to find out he was right.
It didn't kill me to go home early. My boss didn't shout at me or get all disappointed in me. I still have a job tomorrow. I wasn't fired on the spot. I felt bad for the first few minutes but it passed and was replaced with such relief. It took me a few minutes more to actually relax but eventually, I remembered how. I found myself playing my guitar and singing praise songs. My guitar had gotten dusty in the last few months from disuse. My fingers now hurt but my heart and spirit are more at peace than they have been in weeks.
Thanks, Honey, for again realizing when I am need of a little R&R at the throne and forcing me to get some. I love you!
Thank God it is the weekend! Between school, work, studying and house stuff....yikes! Talk about feeling overwhelmed.
There are not enough hours in the day.
On the upside, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. Stronger physically, emotionally but most importantly, spiritually. Count it all joy right?!
My God is faithfully carrying me through school as I fit it in studying on 15-min work breaks and before my eyelids droop at night. I have my first fire ride-along next Friday. Woohoo! I am excited and scared spit-less at the same time. Life is an adventure and not always easy. Exciting stuff. Obviously this season is not leaving me a lot of time for blogging, but trying to journal as time allows.
My Current Mantra
Walk humbly with God and do the work at your hands....