To be honest the last year has felt like a rollercoaster....so many emotional ups and downs...simply crazy. I recently felt at the end of my rope and I came to an important discovery. I am incredibly selfish! Self-centered, and totally stupid! I wondered why I was feeling so all over the board and like a shock it suddenly hit me.... this past year I have been so preoccupied with what I wanted in my future...praying about my future...worrying about my future....wondering why i don't have any major goals or mission in life...a ministry calling etc. The few and rare moments when I felt truly peaceful?! Is when I went, "God, it is all yours!" But then like the idiot I am...i would take back the worries and praying for answers and get so wrapped up in my little selfish world. So here is my findings....I am only happy, joyful, content, and excited about life when I am completely focused on my Lord! NOT THE FUTURE, NOT THE PAST, NOT EVEN THE PRESENT, but simply sitting at Jesus' feet. What is truly the only important thing???? Listen to Jesus when he is with Mary and he tells Martha that Mary has made the better choice. So my challenge to myself and to you is simply to spend more time sitting with Jesus!